When I think over what's happened over the last few years, it's quite overwhelming. I've gotten married to the woman of my dreams, and I have faced many difficult challenges at work and personally. I've watched people around me struggle and fall. I've watched the world change into a divisive mess.
Throughout it all, I've tried to be the person that holds things together, that supports others, that is there for others in their time of need. I can honestly say that I think I've faced all of this with goodwill and have brought my best forward to help others and that I've actually been reasonably effective.
The truth is though, that for at least the last year, I've started to struggle myself. Circumstances both in the world, personally to me and at work have added up to be a burden that has resulted in me taking the focus off myself and my usual fitness and health related efforts. I've paid the price for that, I've stacked on a fair bit of weight, am struggling a bit mentally, and have recently been subject to a negative medical diagnosis.
Thing is though, I do have an opportunity to turn it all around. It's not too late.
But it's going to take some time and commitment.
After some careful consideration, I've decided that I can't go on the way I have been. I need to re-centre, fill my soul back up, get fit again, and take back charge of my health, life and wellbeing.
For the time being, I've decided to leave the workforce. It's not an easy decision to make, believe me. I consider myself to be in a pretty good position right now and don't leave gainful employment lightly. But I'm no good to others or myself if I run myself into the ground. I owe this to myself to do something about this.
So I plan to spend at least the next 3 months working on my fitness and health and spending more time with my loved ones. I'm going to retract a bit and live in a microcosm that consists of sweating in the park, spending time with all the beautiful plants in the garden, with my loved ones, and ignore the gloom that is the news at the moment.
Once that's done I'll be able to cast off the gloomy, moody and sullen spell I've fallen under recently.
For the time being, I'm not going to be on here much, and I probably won't be posting about insurance. I want to really not think about insurance for a little while, it'll do me good.
I will be back though, and when I do, I have no doubt it that my usual spring in my step will be back.
In the meantime, if anyone really needs me, you'll be able to find me in the morning at Kings Park or Jacobs Ladder. Please feel welcome to join me!
I know some people are upset with me for making this decision, and to those people I simply ask your understanding that I'm doing this not out of any sense of aggrievement or spite, but simply because I feel I have to for my own benefit. So I really hope that you can come to peace with it.
I don't want anyone to worry or be concerned for me. It will all be alright.
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